5:00 am

There's so much that's going on lately, and I can't tell what my brain is doing. It never shuts up. Whenever I get one moment of peace it starts back up again. It's always about the same things, and no matter how much I try to think of something else to shut it up everything comes crashing back.

It's not necessarily a bad thing I suppose, but it's rather inonvienent. I try to sketch things out to work on my portfolio, but I wind up coming back to the same subject. I always want to paint and draw the same thing, and eventually it's going to appear obsessive. I can't do that. For the sake of my sanity I can't do that. I have to find a new subject. Maybe I need to find a muse, but then when I think about it my muse is all the same.

I feel like I'm entering into this vast pit of thoughts and emotions due to the fact that I don't know what to do with all of this. I can't admit that he's right, but I can't say that he's wrong. I don't know what to say...

I think I'll just blame this on me being sick and try to sleep it off. That usually clears my head.

(no subject)

Classes need to start. I'm going insane not having my mind constantly doing something. I NEED PROJECTS.